Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Hand Prints of Love

So today on the show we decided to spin the disappointment some were feeling after the election (since there is always a winner and a not-so-much of a winner... I hate the word loser when not in jest) into something positive, so we asked for folks to call in with their stories of when disappointments in their lives turned into something that God used to change their paths for the better.
We heard about a young 17 year old who was raped and found herself pregnant but after deciding to keep the baby found love, is a fantastic mom, and has since found a wonderful Godly man with 2 children to become a family with.
We learned about illness and death that resulted in salvation for others.
One woman shared how after losing a job unexpectedly after 23 years that she began college and now has a masters degree 30 years after finishing high school and has the career she has always dreamed of.
One story shared was that of a 15 year old that after years of her mother being abused, was abused herself, ended up being removed from her home, living with friends, and was finally being taken in by a loving family - she is now a young lady with relationship with Christ, in church, and wanting to help others.
Oh my goodness, and how a life of alcohol and drug abuse following 11 miscarriages now has been molded into a ministry as a youth pastor.
I am continually floored by my God and the ones He creates... how He restores brokenness... how He not only does that, but how He allows us all to look back through that pain and see glory, see His plan in motion, and see His handprints all over our lives.
But that's not even all... through it all we leave our handprints too you know. On those we touch through those experiences. During and after. Are our handprints the shape of our hand or His?
I pray that I'm more like the strong women we heard from today - that I leave handprints through life on the lives of others in the shape of His nail scarred hands and not my self indulgant one... His gentle hands leave the shape of unconditional love, of joy, of faithful obedience. They hold His love and offer it to all He touches... I want to touch the world like that.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

So its been awhile...

I haven't written in some time - sorry. But I think I have just been contemplating all going on around me...

Earlier I went to California with Compassion International, saw some of God's creation I never have before, and heard Donald Miller speak for three days... both gave me a lot to consider.
Then I was sick. That gave me time alone to reflect on all I had just returned from, learned, been challenged by, and I also finished reading The Shack... WOW! Again, a lot to consider.
I'm also reading Un-Christian... even more to be challenged by and consider.
He is working on me again. I'm in a time of growth already again... Exhilarating!
Then Sharathon was upon us at Love89.1FM. The first time in years we haven't made the goal by the end of the third day. It's a tough time right now economically speaking and we were not taken by surprise. Neither was God. The stories that have come out of sharathon are mind blowing. The listeners that responded were mind blowing. We are blessed to say the least.
The calls/emails I took personally... of women in abusive relationships turning to us for comfort and advice. Of single parents struggling emotionally and financially and just needing to let us know they are sacrificially supporting us again this year because we are their lifeline to encouragement and hope. The families that have been restored because of His conviction through songs, programming and messages heard daily that broke through the fog of doubt and confusion. We can never underestimate our Jesus (song there somewhere) and how the Holy Spirit uses what God ordains to draw those who need Him closer to Him. Even those who have accepted Him into their lives for the first time!
I will never get used to the idea that I get to walk into the studio each Monday thru Friday morning and greet those who tune in simply looking for a certain song, a certain word, a laugh, a smile, or someone to cry or pray with them... I get to witness God literally creating relationships, change lives, bring hearts together, and at the same time - I get to be changed by it myself.... My God is truly beautiful, crazy beautiful and totally amazing... there are no words...

Friday, August 22, 2008

Central High

Wow. No words really at first. What can we say? How do we process it? A shooting at Central High in Fountain City. FOUNTAIN CITY! Good night.
I guess once I realized we were all asking the same questions I began to try and process it myself.
I know my God is on the throne. I know my God has a greater plan. I know all the church answers. Cam I still question then?
Yes. My God is that big. He knows I will question. He's ok with that. He created me with a free will and a mind of my own. It's what makes life interesting. It's what makes me interesting to Him I think.
I have decided that a 15 year old kid is no different than I am.
They question life too of course.
And they hurt of course.
And that means Satan whispers lies to them just the same.
Lies about who they are - what they are - what they can and can't be - what they can and can't do - lies about whether they are good enough - loved enough - all the same things we wrestle with as adults we wrestled with when we were 15 years old too right?
What makes us think its any different for a 15 year old now, when the world around us is so confusing, challenging, hard?
Some have to fight extremely hard every day to drown out the voice of the father of lies. Some days that voice loses. Some days the lie wins.
The voice of truth needs to be spoken into lives by each of us. When the voices that lie get loud our voices should carry His truth and break through the noise.
We need to be speaking truth into others lives around us every day.
Encouraging, building up, loving, understanding the best way we know how.
Speaking His name - His truth - sharing His love.
I pray we do that.
I pray I do that.
Please God - help me do that.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

The Olympics - and Me?

Ok - I am totally into the Olympics... I didn't know if it would actually happen. I mean, I was excited at the thoughts of them. Very excited. But once it was time for them to begin I didn't know if I would really be into it. BUT I AM!!!!!!
Here's what I have realized I love about them.
Of course I want the Americans to do well. And the stories of inspiration are there too! But the thing is they are there with all the countries athletes - including China. And not just the athletes... just people in general.
Like the young six year old boy from China who marched into the opening ceremonies with Chinese legendary basketball player Yao Ming. Because the little boy was a hall monitor at school, he crawled back into the rubble when they had the earthquake and pulled two other kids to safety after freeing himself.
His little head still bore the bare patch where the hair hasn't grown back yet from his injuries.
And the talent is mind boggling. Thats where I am blown away again... the gifts and talents all these people possess and to be so passionate about sharing them!
Imagine what would happen if they all knew the Savior... what a completely unimaginable impact they could make through this years Summer Games! If they had that intimate heart knowledge and could inspire others on THAT level... WOW.
Now, if those of us who know that Savior just realized how talented we all are and shared with others the gifts we have been given? To have the confidence to discover those gifts? Whether it was as an athlete, singer, cook, builder, artist, wordsmith, an encourager, whatever that one thing is. What if we who know what that thing is, and know Him, started doing it completely for His joy and glory?
WOW!!!

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Atlanta and Steven Curtis Chapman equals God speaking!

We (Love89) took a road trip with staff and listeners yesterday to Atlanta for a Braves game and a concert with Steven Curtis Chapman... which would have been great all in itself. But God decided to bless me, us, with a show of His power that had I not anticipated.
The game was a hot and humid one for sure, and I should have realized that might mean a late afternoon early evening pop up shower. But I was genuinely surprised when I saw the dark clouds over the Northwest rim of the stadium appearing. And then not until I saw the lightening and felt the cool blast of air did it dawn on me that He was there. It's funny how you go through your day to day activities and think that He shows up. Hmmm. Totally forgetting that He is always there - everywhere - in everything.
The wind picked up and trash left over in the stands from all the hotdogs, nachos, and cokes began blowing around. My heart quickened - listening. Was this important?They announced that we would retreat under the canopies until it blew over.
And when a huge blast of lightening appeared to be a close as the parking lot, retreat we did!
As we stood chatting together with a young couple of our listeners celebrating their one year anniversary of dating I began to think, feel Him. I suppose I may have seemed at some point disengaged from the conversation for a moment but I begin thinking... He's here, He's here... and we're here... and He's up to something.
As the rain poured down we waited. The lightening flashed, the thunder clapped. He was speaking. "See Me, He was saying, See Me - then worship Me".
When it slowed to almost a complete stop we begin filling the seats again. Then they said it was too wet for anything but an acoustic show with Steven - no band.
Ahhhh, there it is. God desired it to be more intimate, quieter. The sky turned into a beautiful orange and gray mix that was breathtaking. Then it truly sank in, the power He had just displayed with that summer storm was the real beginning of the worship last night! He spoke then, in that way in the storm, because we first needed to see Him, hear Him, feel Him before we begin to worship.
He displayed Himself so that when that unplanned (by man anyway) intimate time with Steven happened it was a truer intimate time with my Father. So that when His whispers in my heart and mind began, they were part of a conversation we were already having even if I didn't realize it!
I had wondered earlier in the day why the trip itself was quieter than I had anticipated. The staff was more low key than usual. The winners and their guests were quieter that I had anticipated.
My mood was not bad in anyway yesterday at all - but I had questioned myself as to why I felt like I was waiting for something, and why was I so quiet but with no feeling like I needed to be otherwise?
I sit here on the Sunday morning after. I did not go to church today. When I woke up this morning I thought to myself, that as crazy as it sounded to me, that I needed to stay home... why? We are called to gather together in corporate fellowship, to be fed, and to simply worship. But also I know that as Steven sang last night - God is God - and when He speaks I am to listen. I don't always you know. Not nearly always.
But I am grateful that I did today. He wanted me alone with Him. I loved my time with Him last night.
In the storm, in listening to Steven Curtis Chapman, and even when He spoke to me afterwards on the bus ride home through the dvd we watched - The Lion Witch and the Wardrobe... I still see and hear things in that movie that are new every time I watch it! Isn't if awesome how it was Lucy and Susan (the women) that were the last with Aslan when he had died? The first to see Him when he returned? Just like the precious account of our Savior - incredible!
I have loved my time with my Father this morning.
He has blessed me, talked with me through His Word and more.
"Yes, as the rain and snow come down from the heavens and do not return without watering the earth, making it yield and giving growth to provide seed for the sower and bread for the eating, so the word that goes from my mouth does not return to me empty, without carrying out my will and succeeding in what it was sent to do"(Is 55:10-11).
His rain did not return void in me, His Word did not, now I have shared what He has given me and it will not return void because it is from His mouth to my heart. I hope your heart is blessed today.
He's already here, just see Him.

p.s.
When I had wrapped up my time with God this morning I went to search for something on the Internet. My initial browser search listed this item first. Please take a look at what God did after a storm 4 years ago and led me to today through this link

Friday, August 1, 2008

What a Week... Whew!

It's already August 1st, my son just turned 22 yesterday, and my daughter turns 21 in 2 days...
Life is moving way fast!
But God is good - so sweet - and so attentive.
My friend Lisa is pregnant and I got to see her today for the first time in a week. She is having a miracle baby. God has created life where doctors said there could be none!
I have a friend Carla whose Dad is dying. Carla's heart is breaking some days. I'm sure there will be times when she doesn't feel her heart is fully alive or ever will be again. But God brings life where there seems to be none.
If we wander through this life without Christ we are not truly alive - but when we know Him, I mean truly know Him, He brings Life, and makes all things new.
What a sweet God and creator of life we have, what a gentle comforter His Holy Spirit is, and what a giver of new life and mercies eternal our Savior Jesus brings... what a miracle we all are!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Busy Saturday...

Today I woke up to rain. That really makes we want to stay in bed, you? The distant thunder, rain on the roof and pattering against the window, Mr Pickles my mini-daschund curled up against the back of my knees... hmm-m-m-m-m-m... but wait, coffee would be great too... ok coffee, yeah.
So I got up being very quite so I wouldn't wake Todd my hubby, let Pickles out for his morning "you know", and while the coffee was brewing and the house was still so quite I stood at the window and thought about all I had to do today, West Knoxville, Sevierville, stops to make, things to do, alot to do...
But wait, look, the rain, it's still falling. Wow, it's really so soothing. So beautiful. Look at the drops sliding down the window. It flows so steadily... like His love. I thought about Him - my lovong Father - all of the sudden... about how steadily He loves us. Yes, times get tough and things so wrong, money isn't stretching as far right now, my heart gets heavy sometimes, even breaks. Things happen to those around me I wish I could make better. People that are so good have things happen that seem so confusing. But see, then the rain keeps falling this morning, the quiet sinks in, and my heart quickens as I hear my God whisper "See, I'm renewing the day. Life. I'm providing water that will flow and bring more life, and more beauty, for you to enjoy. I am also weeping, weeping over those in my world that are hurting. I am sustaining life with my tears, I am listening in this quite morning for your voice too my child - waiting for you to tell me the things you desire, the things you are afraid of, the things that you need Me to hold and carry for you today, to hear about the things you realized I did just for you yesterday - that sunset, those flowers, that friend who blessed you that I placed in your life for such a time as this. I want to hear you say how glad you are for your family, for your very life... and I love you, more than anything"...
Good morning God. Thank you for your new mercies and grace. I do love my family. I do see you moving around me becuase I'm watching for you. Show me your hand. Thank you for all I have, for being a God who wants to spend time with me, and for loving me today. And God, thank you for talking with me this morning. I love you too.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

My Anniversary!

Last Thursday was my 15th Wedding Anniversary and my sweet husband went all out!
I guess it seems Todd still has some surprises left in him :o)
First he hand delivered a vase of my favorite flowers - Daisey's - around lunch time.
That would have been plenty!
Little did I know that he had been planning this for quite some time and had also devised a scheme so I would not suspect a thing.
Now, this is highly unusual since he is normally the kind of person who gives you your birthday present a week early because he can't stand the excitement... I once got a Christmas gift right after Thanksgiving :o)
Anyway - I thought I was going to a business meeting/lunch with Lisa because she emailed me a week before about it.
Little did I know that was a cleverly planned ruse so he could surprise me when I "walked him to his car" with a long white stretch limousine... OMG!!!
I honestly thought it was for someone at the business across the street and was still trying to get to the station van so Lisa and I could make our "luncheon"... it was truly hilarious!
He finally broke through and convinced me the limo was for me. He then whisked me away to a reserved booth at Naples where we dined on delicious food and great conversation - and held hands like we were 16!
We wrote our anniversary note and dropped it inside one of the empty wine bottles that line the inside of the booth that couples sign, date and fill with love letters(the whole message in a bottle idea which I think is very romantic).
Afterwards we drove back to the station, and as he walked me back to my office he informed me that we both had the rest of the day off (which he had also arranged ahead of time)and took me anywhere and everywhere I wanted to go... we hit the Farmers Market, went shoe shopping (we both needed a pair), and he even took me out to dinner so I didn't have to cook at all - OMG!!!
I learned that I do indeed have a wonderful husband. Not because of what he spent or bought, but because he actually thought about me - planned things specifically with me in mind - took the time to wonder, ponder, what would she like? What would she enjoy? What would make my wife feel special?
Know what the best thing about all that is? That I was literally in his thought! To pull this off he was THINKING ABOUT ME!
My mind pictures him sitting at his desk at work, pencil in hand, jotting down notes, scanning the Internet for options, asking friends their opinions - THAT is the BEST!!!!!
Isn't that something we all desire? To be in the thoughts of the person who loves us?
now THAT is romance ;o)

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Ok - I Cried...

I saw a prescreening for the new movie coming out in September called "Fireproof" last night... Sherwood Baptist Church is releasing their third movie - makers of Flywheel and Facing the Giants... If you are married, have been married, are ever entertaining the idea of ever being married SEE THIS MOVIE!!!!!
Kirk Cameron is a firefighter (Caleb) married to Katherine. He's got things he is struggling with - big things. He's a hero to everyone but her. She's forgotten what it means to validate him as a man. Their marriage needs a hero. Their marriage is in shambles. They want to give up. They argue, fight, dislike even being together anymore - they have let the stuff of life beat them and their relationship down. All seems lost. Until God steps in through Caleb's dad and a little book called "The Love Dare"...
I won't ruin it for you, check out www.fireproofthemovie.com for yourself (and Fireproof Your Marriage too) and make plans to see it when it comes to Sept 26th. Love89 will host a listener screening on Sept 16th so starting the first of September be listening for your chance to see it for free with us - but if you do, understand you will the be a part of a major grass roots promotional movement... you must tell everyone you know to see this movie!
In fact - just tell everyone anyway...
This is a movie that could be the beginning of healing for a whole lot of couples, and a warning for other couples as they travel the journey together through the years to make sure you don't let the flames burn out of control.
Oh, and bring the kleenex guys. This means you too men, you'll need them as much as the ladies will, my husband did... and he loved it.