That seems to be the theme of many days for me lately - bittersweet - and I am learning to love it surprisingly.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not some wall of strength that never falters, never has pieces break off, or even is torn down from time to time. Its just that hey, what choice do I have if I want to receive all that has been stored up for me?
I read a quote this morning from Charles Du Bos that said "The important thing is this: to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become."
As we pass through this life there are moments of loss, of change, of death, of revelation, and of forks in the road. One thing they all hold in common - something has to end for something to begin.
Bittersweet by definition is "that which produces or expresses a mixture of pain and pleasure".
I am learning to embrace the bittersweet, because all lessons God is attempting to teach me are pointing that way. My life seems full of them right now. Moments of change mean that the death of something must happen, but not so just that something new can be born, but that it may be experienced to the fullest.
And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new...
As bittersweet as it may be sometimes, I want every single bit of what God has for me that will help me become who He wants me to be. My King Jesus - undo me and make all things new!